as i sit here enjoying the yummiest hummus i've ever made in my entire life, i realize that something major has changed in me: i am preparing food that i think tastes good. that is HUGE.
i am almost at the 3 month mark that i set for myself. i have traveled and stayed raw. i have said "no" time after time to food that was very appealing to my senses. and i've barely felt any loss around the whole thing.
today i stepped into a cafe that i used to LOVE. i looked at the menu, imagining what i would order if i lifted the cooked food ban...as i read the descriptions, my senses were stimulated, remembering the smells and textures and tastes of the food, but then i took it a step further, to how i would FEEL after i ate that yummy yummy food, and each time i would cross it off the list, remembering the digestive distress that used to plague me, and which i fully accepted as normal.
something major has changed in me: i am more in touch and concerned with how i FEEL in my body, and less interested in satisfying my senses. it's more about the whole experience of eating (which includes digestion) than mere taste satisfaction. it's more about my body, my health, my vitality, my life.
i have to say, i'm sure i could do better as far as food prep goes, but i have come a LONG way. i made almond milk this morning, and then used the leftover pulp to make this yummy hummus:
almond pulp
raw tahini
garlic
olive oil
lemon juice
celtic sea salt
cumin
i just intuited the proportions. i'd say it was about 5:1 pulp:tahini
these past few weeks i've lightened up on the strictness of my rawness, sometimes eating salads at restaurants when i know the dressing isn't 100% raw, eating some Manna bread when i was traveling. and it feels ok. i like the idea of being "raw dominant": everything is game, resulting in a mostly raw diet sprinkled with whatever really seems right.
this is my plan, beginning april 1: RAW DOMINANT. no huge shifts; maybe no shifts at all. i'll just open up the gates and see what comes in, what i choose. i wonder how it will feel to eat rice again. i wonder if i'll go back to meat at all. i believe this shift will be enlightening and i think i will have much to post about.
btw my sister decided to go raw at the same time as i did, and she has lost over 30 pounds in that short time!! go amber!!
