...because now that i'm not eating it, i'm not hungry!! every once in a while, i feel a chemical/physical shift in my body, kind of like a pond in the summer drying up. it's an inward pull, different from what i remember "hunger" to feel like, which felt more primal, definitely located in the stomach. growly. this is more of a whole being sensation, where my whole body, not just my stomach, is longing for nutrients.
when sarah (my partner, who has been raw for 3 or 4 months now) first went raw, she read to me this sentence from one of her books: "It's time to get over your addiction to cooked food!", which i laughed at, and which scared me. addiction to cooked food?? to me that sounded like "addiction to eating"!! and yet, the phrase ate away at me...was i addicted to cooked food?? is there something addicting about it?
i am definitely tempted by certain foods, and i'm a vacuum-style snacker, eating whatever has fallen off a plate, or gotten on my finger, or (heaven forbid!) is heading on one of the kids' plates towards the garbage!! so i really am on my guard against my habits...today i barely caught myself as the cream cheese i was wiping up with my finger ALMOST hit my tongue!! and i had to bag up the bowl of marinated baked tempeh i was transporting in my car so i wouldn't accidentally snack on it out of pure munchy habit.
it is interesting to see these habits--not just the enjoyment of the flavors, but the programmed WAY i am used to eating. grab-eat-grab-eat. my friend called it being an "opportunivore", which i've always been proud of!! but now i believe there is a higher, healthier way.
right now the food i am eating tastes delicious, feels incredibly satisfying, and i don't have the sensation of being full when i'm done, i just feel done. Satisfied. On the consciousness level, i can only say that i feel more balanced. Less highs and lows. More peace.
Hey Amy .. .thanks for sharing this ... its mighty tempting as i move through weeks of more 'mindful eating' .... Jan Chozen Bays' book is wonderfully helpful ... you are helping me to consider fresh and raw .... good luck to you and much good energy coming your way.
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I like the idea of less highs and lows......I about fell off of my chair in class yesterday (low), why? I needed nuts & instead of stepping out and eating a handful, I continued to sit. Lesson learned! Thanks so much for sharing:-)
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Val